☕️ Good Morning...
I wanted to give you a little update on the last week and you'll see why I'm sharing after...
At the beginning of February I decided to see if I could use up the rest of my vacation time left for the 2018 year as my husband and I, if everything went as planned, were going to be taking possession of our new property that we had just bought on Valentines Day. By no means had we planned on buying a rental property, and by no means were we looking to take on one more project, but the opportunity presented itself to us and we couldn't refuse! Well of course we could but I am terrible at saying no to a good thing...or I'm a glutton for punishment, either way, it's ours, mouse crap and all!
I was granted the time off so I took a week vacation from my J-O-B from the 14th to the 21st to start and help with renovations. We started demolition on the 15th and have been there day and night other than Tuesday, (will explain), ever since. I realized early in the week that something had to give and although it would cost me, it was going to be worth it.
Not only was this house going on for us in February but I had just started a new business and our team was growing rapidly, my book in audio format had to be completed, along with my site updates, organizing projects, meetings, podcast and interviews getting lined up, etc...
So, I hired out for the book completion for amazon and audio, asked for help with our growing team, over 115 new members to be exact, disconnected from social media for the most part for almost the entire week, booked my organizing project to start later in the month and explained my situation to those that I was interviewing, although I know that I missed a few appointments, I'll do my best to make up for it this week.
Now what about the gym, extra-curricular activities, our social life, and family? The gym will have to wait as we're getting our workout in with the demo anyway, soccer is only twice a week, and thank goodness we have our family days every second Monday where all 13 of us get together, at least we have that!
Guess what?...
I am NOT super woman. I burnt out on Tuesday and stayed in bed, ordered through skip-the-dishes and watched Netflix, "Grace and Frankie", all day and night. It was amazing and I tried not to feel guilty for even a minute, but I can not keep running like this and I am not trying to prove anything to anyone, I also know that I am not the only one.
Why do so many of us do this to ourselves? I mean really, I have big goals, but honestly is it worth burning out for? It's 6am right now as I write this on my laptop from my J-O-B and because we try to save on parking and my husband had to go into work early, I'm killing two birds with one stone.
Being off of social media for the week for the most part was nice...I actually mentioned to my sister the other day that sometimes I just want to delete it all, be invisible, and move to an island, and I can't be the only one that feels like that? I know that I chose this new career path, but like everyone that "chooses" their path, we're also entitled to dislike it at times.
Like everything else in life, life went on as usual, no one skipped a beat and I picked back up this morning as if nothing had changed, but something is changing, life has to change for me, because (insert the cliche quote here) "we only get one life to live". My sister also said that she thinks that moving to an island for me was a good idea because that will probably be the only way that my life will slow down.
Don't get me wrong, life is good, and I'm so grateful for where I am, who I'm surrounded with and what I've achieved, but there needs to be balance and every couple of months I need to remind myself of that.
It's like every time I accomplish something or have a task close to completion, I'm looking for the next challenge or goal to set. I say that like it's a bad thing but the word "over-achiever" comes to mind sometimes!
Anyways, like every Monday morning, oops, it's Thursday, I will write in my day planner, get through my daily to do's and carry on while trying to figure out how I'm going to lesson this load and take a step back... Will share when I have the answer to how I can do this without compromising my goals and passions.
On a side note, the reno is going amazingly well, we were able to gut and clean out the house to be ready for contractors all within 5 full days and with just a little more clean up needed tonight, we can start framing tomorrow.
Vlog to follow shortly!
Cheers and thanks for reading!
Joelle x